Been a regular visitor to the library since I've made my decision to quit CC a while ago. The move is still by far, going strong. But I need more motivations to move my ass into and around the library as they're clearly lacking of books to read, or more precisely, they need more interesting books and less boring text.

Basically I do nothing in the library other than reading current news, drop by at Mahathir's homepage, log on to Kongregate and play century-old games, blah blah. I did read a couple of books on law, but the fact that they looked like a bunch of chanting & praying scripts at times turned me off. But I do just found a book I really liked, recently.

Most of the time, I can't be helped but wonder how much capacity Mahathir has in his brains. Certainly some people can load a cow, but no matter what they're no better than cows. But however wise one person is, he's there to gain benefit for whatever/whoever he deemed fit, and whatever Mahathir mentioned in his blog is directly in benefit to his purposes and agendas, no matter how brilliant he put forward his ideas to. No one is stupid enough especially the likes of Mahathir to mention something that sides the opposite and brings no benefit to himself.

Chinese New Year is coming, in a couple of weeks. While most people enjoy the coming holidays, it only mean more clashes towards my huge abundance of plans, since the few days of Chinese New Year you'll get practically stuck with your extended family (.. think of the red packets as consolation :] ) and again! No valentine's day. Been on a cruel streak where I don't get to celebrate Valentine's for years, and this year it just happen once more. Someone needs to get killed. Or just that I need to go to the temple (.. and also against my stand- There's no superGod to begin with) to ask for stupid unpredictable luck.

Now if you're wondering why I do not believe in God, or in any ways having the intention to brainwash me, hold it. It just won't work. God by itself is a definition of superiority, and the perfect existence. By nature, all is made to drift towards balance of the universe, life to compensate death scientifically, fierce competitions to drive down prices to near cost-prices thus reduce exploitations towards consumers in business, people and attempts to take the empty seats of power, in politics. The existence of God is simply conflicting with the balance of nature, and for the existence of the perfection of God, there must be something totally imperfect by nature to balance it. We can only trace back to history, where people would believe in something they like to believe in, and they liked to believe in the existence of something to control what human can't control, therefore the existence of God. Shall the barbarians won the war, we'll be praying the Sun or trees. It's just.. absurd.


Thinking of absurdities,
I've not enough days to fit in all my plans. I don't need less burdens. I need double the time. Just that (:

btw, Black Ransom the movie, is nice. At least, better than expected.